Upon reading this task, two people immediately sprang to mind.
First, I knew I needed to forgive my dad. Throughout my teenage life and into my adult life, he has put many hardships onto my life. He caused the divorce of my parents, he did not look after me through the break up, he's an alcoholic, a self destructor, and a bigot. He does not care that he upsets other people and only thinks of his own narrow minded self. This week was his birthday, and what with this task, I decided to forgive him for all the anger and pain he has caused. I bought him presents, a card, and went and visited after not speaking to him for months. I know deep down he appreciated it and he told me he misses me. I'd like to think that he would want to come visit, it's just difficult for him. I love him, warts and all as they say. Just because someone makes it difficult for us to love them, doesn't mean we shouldn't.
The next person I needed to forgive was my wonderful boyfriend, Davey. When he was unfaithful back in February, I told him that I forgave him. However as of late, I have noticed that my behaviours towards him may not coincide with my verbalisation of forgiveness. this week I have actively stopped all suspiciousness and allowed myself to be a lot more trusting with him. For example, tonight, he has gone to a show with Kay, his friend, a girl who he used to date. I will live in forgiveness and trust, otherwise, I'll carry the negative spirit with me and it will lead to more negativity. Just let it go.
I started this task by looking at myself. I am truly grateful for my health and my body, even the parts I don't like. I always have hated my teeth, and have constant nightmares about them, but I realised without them I wouldn't be able to eat, talk, sing, smile, laugh - all of these things that I am COMPLETELY thankful for. By doing this I can now fully appreciate every single part of my body for what they are and what they let me do.
The next things I looked at were my clothes and my cosmetics. I'm grateful for these as they allow me to be who I am and feel confident in my own skin. They may seem unnecessary and almost vain, and I'm not saying I couldn't live without them, because I could, but without them I'd be a little less 'me' and so for that I am thankful.
I have been out in nature this week with a few friends. I'm grateful for the beauty in the natural that God has made. I'm thankful he has made trees to allow life on Earth to thrive. I witnessed how delicate nature is, I saw many fallen trees, and learned about the continuous deforestation of our planet. This needs to stop. Everyone needs to be aware of how nature makes the world go round. Not money. The characters of the monkeys we were watching was brilliant to see, how God has given all creatures personality. We all need to recognise this and love all species equally.
I have seen a lot of my friends this week, all of which I share gratitude towards, all for their individual quirks and talents. I need to remember that although at time it may seem like I am quite alone due to moving away, they will always welcome me with open arms, and I am ever thankful for that.
Of course I am so appreciative of my love, Davey. Without him, I feel like I would crumble into dust. He has kept me afloat in troubled times, financially and emotionally speaking. Like God, he is my rock, and I know I can depend on him for anything. He is a wonderful, warm, caring, human being, who has opened me up to a world I didn't think I would be apart of. He encourages me to be the best I can be and I definitely feel like I have grown more in the past 9 months than i have done since I was in my teens. It's even the little things I am grateful for. A cuddle, a kiss, to be told in beautiful when i don't feel it, to be given a bunch of flowers as a thank you. He is my one true love and I am SO eternally thankful to have met him.
Also, I have been to 3 seperate shows this week. I am grateful to be able to see lots of bands that inspire me and have a relevant message to pass on. They mirror a lot of my own beliefs and for that I am thankful that I can share time with and get to know people from around the world with so much in common. No other genres of music allow for that to happen and so I fully appreciate all musicianship within our community.
This task has definitely helped me to see the good in everything and has made me see that when I am feeling down. Even in the bad there is good, we just have to take the time to look for it. I hope to always be able to see the good in everything and for it to inherently be there in the future.
I told my counsellor how grateful I am for her input in my life; helping me to live abundantly, encouraging me to be courageous in following God's plans and desires for me, enabling me to be free to accept God's love, work and calling. After my divorce, I felt so weak and useless and worthless but she has helped me see that there is life to be found in and after the pain and it's worth living!